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Oil Spill
04:57
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Do you still dream of walking home
Still marking your path with blood on stones
What would it be like to know the way
The trees never tell me what you'd say
I wonder if I could do the same
Fully open myself and still remain
So press the deck close to your heart
Feel their warmth and pick your card
PRECHORUS
Open your hands and see what you'll find
Dream me a dream with light inside
Edges sharp as talons raven's bare
And whisper my name like a prayer
CHORUS:
This thing is an oil spill
You lit me and I am burning still
I'll dream us a night
Full of nothing but light
Hold me as close as you can until
We stand here alive and unafraid
For the first time I think I can brave
Press the gas to the floor
For once I am sure
Just look at us, God, we're set ablaze
I think I hear whispers in the trees
I think I've lived nightmares you won't believe
So til I awake please hold my hand
There's a forest in you; you'll understand
Do you know what it's like to fear yourself
To not trust your hands or mind to help
Oh, I'll be your eyes to see this through
Please make these hands strong enough for you
PRECHORUS
CHORUS
This thing is a thunder storm
I think it can come in many forms
For me it's a thunder storm
I know what I want now and that's more
So soak me in rain
I spent so long afraid
My heads tilted up to the downpour
CHORUS
CHORUS, save for the line "For once I am sure" is replaced with "Excelsior
Just look at us, I'm so amazed
Just look at us, we are ablaze
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2. |
A Lesson on Secrets
03:38
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See, that's the problem
You learned it when you were still small
Reinforced each monthly full moon
You thought it was your fault
See, that's the problem
You learned you were a heavy weight
That your parents dragged from town
To town, to keep your secret safe
See, that's the problem
Somewhere along the way
These secrets somehow convinced you
That all you bring is pain
When you're taught you are a secret
That others are forced to keep
You're taught “Remus, you're a minefield
Under other people's feet.”
When you're taught that danger's sewn
Into the lining of your soul
You learn to accept some secrets are
Better left untold
See, that's the problem
When clever boys become your friends
Eventually your secret
Isn't only yours to tend
See, that's the problem
They're kinder than you've ever known
Making themselves anew so you
Don't have to be alone
See, that's the problem
Friendships with secrets at their core
Become oh so very fragile
When it comes to waging war
When you're taught that there are people
Who will love you anyhow
You begin to hope only to find
It all comes crashing down
And again you're left in ruins
Of something that you called home
You heart's shattered into pieces
Because you think you should have know
See, that's the problem
We're bound to repeat the past
War never really left us
But now that torch has been passed
See, that's the problem
He has his hair and has her eyes
And he stands so young before you
With a look you recognize
See, that's problem
This boy is full of secrets too
So you teach him love and hope
He takes a different path than you
When you're the one teaching the lessons
To James and Lily's brave young son
You realize that having secrets doesn't
Make you into one
So you tell him to confide and trust
That love will see him through
You teach him all the things that you wish
Had been taught to you
Maybe that's the answer
To every question ever asked
When you teach love and understanding
You leave secrets in the past
And you hope you've taught them how
To lead lives happier than yours
And when all is said and done
How could a teacher ask for more?
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I Mean, Honestly
05:08
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Sometimes I wonder if I'd been nearly as intrigued
By the spirit I saw walking to the church on St. Mark's Eve
If I'd known this “Gansey. That's all there is.” was the type
To wear deck shoes without a lake anywhere nearby
I mean, honestly
He's condescending with the kind of earnest intent
That means he honestly thought he was giving a compliment
He spends money with oblivious naiveté
That makes me want to smack him and then he goes to say
He goes to say:
CHORUS:
Jane (Jane)
I like you an awful lot
Did you know I can fall asleep
On those nights we talk
Oh, Jane (Jane)
I wish you could be kissed
Cause I would beg just one off you
Under all this
I mean, honestly
His words are unerring tools of destruction
And he unequipped with the ability to deconstruct ‘em
He rich enough to have everything that he desires
He thinks polo shirts and khakis count as casual attire
I mean, honestly
The kitchen, laundry, and bathroom are condensed into one space
At the hipster paradise abandoned factory of his place
Not to mention his ostentatious, unreliable excuse for a car
The most atrociously Aglionby by far
But then he says:
CHORUS
I mean, honestly
See, when he’s reading, there’s a different Gansey on his face
One so earnest, so fragile, so unsure of his place
Who would move all of heaven and earth to help his friends
Who met death face to face, when he was only ten
I mean, honestly
He’s the kind of king who only rules once he’s earned his crown
Who is astonished and amazed the people he’s around
What happens to the court when the king leaves them behind?
After all, a single year gives us such little time
Cus then he’s saying:
CHORUS
I mean, honestly
I can’t help wondering if fate just had it out for me
And that spirit I saw walking to the church on St. Mark’s Eve
Because I love him and he’s – God, haven’t we been here before?
Saying “It’ll be okay. I’m ready.” as it starts to pour
But Gansey’s saying:
Jane (Jane)
It’ll be okay
Jane (Jane)
It’ll be okay, it’ll be okay
I mean it honestly:
Blue, kiss me, it’s okay.
It’ll be okay, it’ll be okay
It’ll be okay
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Alice Invictus East Lansing, Michigan
Nonbinary lover of fictional worlds, armed with a guitar, a microphone and a whole lot of unironic enthusiasm.
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